In a new film by Christian group IAmSecond, Reed Robertson says the pressures of being on a star changed him, and not for the better. “A couple years ago, I started to get real cynical and looking at everything like ‘That’s wrong,’ or ‘They are looking at that wrong’ because I thought I had it all figured out,” he said.
Ultimately, the changes in his personality caused his friends and loved ones to begin avoiding him. He grew angry and depressed, and he “finally hit rock bottom.”
“No one wanted anything to do with a cynical person like me,” he said. “I told my youth minister that I was, I pretty much told him that I wanted to kill myself.” He wrote a suicide note, but after speaking with his parents, Jase and Missy, Robertson had a change of heart.
“My mom was devastated. She’s crying and all this kinda stuff. She’s thinking where she went wrong and it wasn’t her at all,” he said. “My dad told me, ‘That is the most selfish thing that you can do… Leave this world because you can’t take it.’ And I really believe that’s true.”
Now, Robertson said his situation has turned around and he’s “back on track with Jesus.”
“I just thought about, like, ‘I’m about to leave all these people that I could have a really huge impact with,’” he said. “I was finally free of doubts, of having an attitude of being cynical, and I remember being so relieved. And Jesus brings that relief.”
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