'As I look back over my life in romance, I don't feel that I have ever been loved': Sean Penn opens up about his split from Robin Wright
He has been married twice - to Madonna for four years, and then to actress Robin Wright for 13 years.
And now Sean Penn has opened up about his heartbreak over the failed relationships.
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The Hollywood star tells Esquire magazine that he thinks that throughout his romantic life, no woman has ever really loved him.
The 52-year-old, who muses over his love life with the magazine, saying: 'There is no shame in saying that we all want to be loved by someone. As I look back over my life in romance, I don’t feel I’ve ever had that,' he tells the magazine.
'I have been the only one that was unaware of the fraud in a few of these circumstances blindly.'
Penn and Wright had a particularly turbulent relationship.
After the pair, who now share two grown-up children, tied the knot in 1996, their relationship went from on to off in the late 2000s.
The couple filed for divorce in 2007 only to dismiss the filing and reconcile shortly after.
But in 2009, the union appeared to had sour again and Penn filed for legal separation only to once again withdraw it and reconcile with his wife in May.
It was finally over in August 2009, when Wright filed for divorce and the couple's split was made official in July 2010.
Penn tells the magazine that divorce made him realise the truth about his relationship.
'When you get divorced, all the truths that come out, you sit there and you go, "What the f*** was I doing? What was I doing believing that this person was invested in this way?" Which is a fantastically strong humiliation in the best sense,' he says.
'It can make somebody very bitter and very hard and closed off, but I find it does the opposite to me.'
Cover boy: The actor graces the cover of the January edition of Esquire magazine
Penn explains that the couple's divorce also impacted on how he handled co-parenting the pair's children - daughter Dylan, 21, and son Hopper, 19.
It was a particularly tough time when Hopper recently underwent brain surgery after a skateboarding accident.
'When he was recovering, seeing the morphine go into him and give him relief created kind of a love affair for me with morphine and that usage of it,' Penn says.
'It had already been eight months of divorce and s***, and raising a kid that's going through the divorce himself, and then this f***ing thing happens ...it was a tough, tough time.'
Penn reveals that after his son Hopper moved in with Wright following their split, he was left confused about what was next.
With time on his hands, Penn had began watching television and saw the crisis in Haiti following the 2010 earthquake.
'I thought, "Wow, I can actually go on a date." And so I go out and I strike out four nights in a row, drinking at a bar and ending up home, you know, drunk,' he explains.
'And on the fourth day I said, "I could just go sit in the middle of the bed and watch TV at four in the afternoon, too. I don't have anything." My daughter's ... doing her thing, my son's with his mother. So I turned on the TV and there was this earthquake in Haiti.'
It wasn't long after this point that Penn co-founded the J/P Haitian Relief Organization.
'The road started with the most obvious kind of trauma, my son's head, and then to get to a place that had been just so devastated and traumatized, and then to see that in fact most of the trauma actually predated the earthquake,' he says.
'You had a country that had never experienced anything that related to comfort, and out of that you had great trauma - but also this great strength that, I think, we all benefited from.'
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He has been married twice - to Madonna for four years, and then to actress Robin Wright for 13 years.
And now Sean Penn has opened up about his heartbreak over the failed relationships.
The Hollywood star tells Esquire magazine that he thinks that throughout his romantic life, no woman has ever really loved him.
The 52-year-old, who muses over his love life with the magazine, saying: 'There is no shame in saying that we all want to be loved by someone. As I look back over my life in romance, I don’t feel I’ve ever had that,' he tells the magazine.
'I have been the only one that was unaware of the fraud in a few of these circumstances blindly.'
Penn and Wright had a particularly turbulent relationship.
After the pair, who now share two grown-up children, tied the knot in 1996, their relationship went from on to off in the late 2000s.
The couple filed for divorce in 2007 only to dismiss the filing and reconcile shortly after.
But in 2009, the union appeared to had sour again and Penn filed for legal separation only to once again withdraw it and reconcile with his wife in May.
It was finally over in August 2009, when Wright filed for divorce and the couple's split was made official in July 2010.
Penn tells the magazine that divorce made him realise the truth about his relationship.
'When you get divorced, all the truths that come out, you sit there and you go, "What the f*** was I doing? What was I doing believing that this person was invested in this way?" Which is a fantastically strong humiliation in the best sense,' he says.
'It can make somebody very bitter and very hard and closed off, but I find it does the opposite to me.'
Cover boy: The actor graces the cover of the January edition of Esquire magazine
Penn explains that the couple's divorce also impacted on how he handled co-parenting the pair's children - daughter Dylan, 21, and son Hopper, 19.
It was a particularly tough time when Hopper recently underwent brain surgery after a skateboarding accident.
'When he was recovering, seeing the morphine go into him and give him relief created kind of a love affair for me with morphine and that usage of it,' Penn says.
'It had already been eight months of divorce and s***, and raising a kid that's going through the divorce himself, and then this f***ing thing happens ...it was a tough, tough time.'
Penn reveals that after his son Hopper moved in with Wright following their split, he was left confused about what was next.
With time on his hands, Penn had began watching television and saw the crisis in Haiti following the 2010 earthquake.
'I thought, "Wow, I can actually go on a date." And so I go out and I strike out four nights in a row, drinking at a bar and ending up home, you know, drunk,' he explains.
'And on the fourth day I said, "I could just go sit in the middle of the bed and watch TV at four in the afternoon, too. I don't have anything." My daughter's ... doing her thing, my son's with his mother. So I turned on the TV and there was this earthquake in Haiti.'
It wasn't long after this point that Penn co-founded the J/P Haitian Relief Organization.
'The road started with the most obvious kind of trauma, my son's head, and then to get to a place that had been just so devastated and traumatized, and then to see that in fact most of the trauma actually predated the earthquake,' he says.
'You had a country that had never experienced anything that related to comfort, and out of that you had great trauma - but also this great strength that, I think, we all benefited from.'
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